I’ll always help anyone who is at this point or can feel themselves getting to this point because I know what it feels like to be there and I know what sort of things can lead us there.
I’ve found myself reaching out numerous times to those who should’ve cared and wanted to help except I’ve been greeted with “Oh ok” or ” You need to be more positive” or “I’m not sure what to say” or “Oh right ok, well anyway…” or “I’ll talk to you later/tomorrow/next week” and that was it, they never got back to me or followed up with other messages asking exactly how I am – nothing. There have been times when I’ve been at my absolute lowest where I’ve even gone to end my life at that very moment.
There has only been one person who hasn’t cut me off when I’ve needed to talk, who has listened and stayed up with me until all hours just holding me while I cry and let everything out, who has put my state of mind before their own needs even if they’re unwell themselves, who has stopped me from ending my own life and that one person is Che. He puts up with so much more than what anyone else would even realize. I can’t even begin to thank him enough for all that he does for me and the amount of times he’s saved me from myself.