I will never understand how Che has managed to support Isabelle and I this year all while going through his own personal hell but he continues to support us every single day and today was no different.
It started with him changing a battery this afternoon which hadn’t been changed since Peter was here. Che told me about the banter between them both which made me smile but at the same time it stung. Che said something that Peter did and he sounded just like him which was really weird!
Before Che started streaming and Isabelle was upstairs in her room we had a brief chat. I told him I’d suddenly felt like crying but I knew it was to do with Peter so he made me talk about him, he asked how we met and for once I didn’t feel awkward or bad telling him these things. I even smiled when I was telling him the story and about the Army barracks and meeting up on our lunch breaks every day.
I’ve realised that I have to deal with the fact that Peter was a big part of my life for a long time and it’s not just a case of forgetting him and moving on – how can I when he was Isabelles biological dad! I know it won’t be easy but I am taking baby steps to grieve properly for him. I really am greatful and so very lucky to have someone who is so understanding and supportive of us, I honestly don’t know what I’d do without him.