👸M Y W O R L D👸
I know this is more directed to grown up children who have flown the nest but the feeling is still the same when your child is not around for a period of time.
I know this sounds really pathetic but when Isabelle was away for the whole weekend at Disneyland, we had no contact with her at all (phones and devices weren’t advised) and honestly it was actually horrendous! I never thought I’d feel the way I did even though I was kept busy doing her bedroom, I was still counting down the hours until she came home. When she got on the coach early Friday morning I have no idea how I didn’t cry! All weekend my heart was hurting and it ached to see her again. A mother and daughter’s love is something so special and unique; it’s something that just can’t ever be broken. Mine and Isabelles bond is super strong which is why I probably felt the way I did as well it being her first time out of the UK without Che and I.
I was obsessively refreshing the weather app for Paris to make sure it wasn’t raining, I was constantly worrying! “Is she warm enough?” “Will she like the food?” “Will she be full enough?” “Will she remember to pack her raincoat in her bag just in case?” “Has she had enough sleep?” “Are people being nice to her?” “I hope she’s not missing us” “Who will comfort her if she gets upset or cries?” And the rest of it. I even packed some little snacks in her suitcase to last her the weekend just incase she didn’t like the food or she was hungry between meals. Of course I worried for nothing! She was warm enough, it didn’t rain, everyone was nice to her, she had lovely room mates, she liked the food, she went to bed full, she didn’t miss us and she just had a bloody brilliant time!!
When Sunday evening came around and we pulled up in the car park one of the Brownie leaders was who I saw first and then I saw Isabelle – I nearly cried because I was so happy to see her and just relieved at how happy and relaxed she looked.
I never thought I could ever love someone the way I love my daughter, it’s the most warmest intense feeling and my heart always feels like it could burst with pride and with the insane amounts of love I have for her.